Tell Me How You Feel About Me

If it were possible I would ask every single person who has ever met me to describe how they feel about me and what they think of me in full detail. And don’t get me wrong. It’s not because people’s opinions of me matter to me more than my own or that I personally think about these people often (although there are some people I can’t seem to go a day without thinking about). I would just like to know myself from outside of my own point of view. I want to perceive myself as somebody else. I want to know who I am without the bias of being who I am. It  would also tell me a lot about how I act around different people. No one person who has ever met me has ever gotten the same me. Not because I wasn’t being authentically myself, but because not everyone deserves to know me as authentically as I know myself. We all have our secrets, our hidden traits, and guilty pleasures. And if we are lucky enough, we’ll have a few people in our lives that know and have seen these hidden parts of ourselves. And for those people, especially, I just want to know: what is your opinion of me, in full detail? And for the ones who have not seen a more vulnerable side of me, the ones I’ve said “hi” to in passing, the ones who have been my lab partner in science class or a distant friend in a large friend group; I ask the same question. Answer me and answer me now before I implode from my lack of knowledge. Because that’s what this is all about, right? Knowledge. We study psychology and earth science and history and art based on thousands of different opinions. Yet, I’m supposed to be satisfied with only knowing one or two peoples opinion on the subject that matters the most, myself. It just doesn’t seem logical, it’s not even fair. In fact, let’s make it fair. You share an opinion you have of me and I’ll do the same about you. No offense is taken, no regrets, and no animosity. Just a genuine curiosity about who you are and who I am. So, there.

To: Everyone I have ever met

Love, Asia